Girl! Have you read Codependency No More? If not, go get it and read it. You and I are so similar it isn't even funny. GO out! Have FUN! Enjoy yourself as that is what living is supposed to be about. Stop letting him have prime real estate in your brain. DETACH! This isn't letting him go. This is letting go of your attempts to control him and the situation. Detaching is realizing that life happens. Whatever bad situation you are in will change. Life does not remain stagnant if you live it. Wallowing in wondering and attempts to control are like a pig wallowing in crap. It only makes you smell bad. Get a life girl. You deserve happiness. Your children deserve to have a mother who knows that she is in control of that happiness and she is in control of her feelings. You are the one who gives your husband the power to affect your feelings. STOP IT! *said in the most loving of voices*
Last edited by goingtofixME; 07/04/0905:26 AM.
"It is excruciating pain. It is the pain of separation, the pain of loss, the pain of dreams and expectations unrealized. It is the loss and death of a mirage."
*said in the most loving of voices*