Has anyone seen my get-up-and-go?

[Dawn of Hope]

Well, the locking fairy was hard at work last night, it seems, and long overdue! I had 151 posts on my last thread, and there were some people who had over 300, I think!

I think this is only my third thread, even after a year and a half on the forums. Here's the last one:
http://www.divorcebusting.com/forums/ubbthreads.php?ubb=showflat&Number=1659934#Post1659934
Let's see if I can make more short(ish) posts instead of a small number of ridiculously loooooooong ones!

Not a lot to report today; I am trying to get some work done and wondering if I will have time to see any fireworks this weekend, and whether I will have any company to do so. My pool liner is in really sad shape, rippped almost end to end, with patches giving up inexorably, one by one, and I am trying to decide what to do about it.

I am gaining little (sometimes big) insights regularly, mostly things that make me go, "Duh!" The latest is that among the few definite things that I could actually get out of H that he wanted to see from me, was for me to get my website up and running (and therefore obviously be serious about my business). I have let the excuses run the show there and it still isn't done, even though I've had plenty of time (years!). Even discounting the possibility of how that might make my life better independent of anything he does, what does that say about my commitment to making things better between us? No need to swing any 2x4s; I am doing that to myself quite painfully already. If anyone has bright ideas on overcoming procrastination and tardiness that seems to be deep-rooted in one's personality despite every effort to kill it...please let me know.

If you have an hour or three, I would welcome comments on my last couple of posts on the previous thread (although some of that was just me journaling and rambling, sorry about that).

Thanks to everyone for all the birthday wishes, both here and in the alt world! You guys rock!

Peace,
Dawn