Well, today turned out to be more difficult than I had planned. Its the first time I have had a moment to breathe in a while and when I stopped I found myself drifting to my H and my M. Around 3pm, I just wanted to sign the D papers and mail them out and be done with the whole thing! I am learning to not act on impulses and any sudden mood changes I feel. Who knows what is going on in my head.
I thought I would get a head start on some of the work I have....but, couldn't get myself to do it and now its almost 8pm and I find myself feeling sad and a bit lonely.
I don't have anything planned really for this weekend. I think I may just go in to work for a few hours to just get out and get some work done. We will see. There is a heat advisory all weekend as its in the 100s again. So, not sure what I will do. I don't want to go to the fireworks alone and ALL my co-workers are married! Isn't that just crazy?????? Good and I am happy for them, but it makes me feel a bit out of the group.
But, no worries, I do have plenty of things to do. Tonight - Before going to bed - I will make a plan for tomorrow so I'm not just flailing around. New day!
And thanks MJ....yup, its a whole new world and a new me these days! Life is moving on...
