OK. I have thought about it, and I am re-grouping. I had moved towards detachment, and I think this week, I took a few steps backward from that goal. No more backsteps.
I am growing more and more peaceful with the eventual outcome of my sitch, whatever that turns out to be. I have no control over that. All I can do is work on me, or as Coach says, "Do the work."
Despite my inner turmoil this week, I have kept that inside and not shown any of those emotions to W.
I have given my M over to God. He knows best, of course. I will continue to make me a H "only a fool would leave."
I have started "The Walk Out Woman" and made it thgrough the first 10 chapters last night. (Thanks Sandi). I am learning quite a bit about how my W reached the place where she is now. I would like to thin she still has some desire to reconnect, however small that is - but that is up to God and is not my issue.
As I write this post, I cannot help but feel how fortunate I am for this board and the people here. Your words are unbelievably helpful. THANKS.
