he was back, i think

[mdoodles]

who knows....went to the beach today and then h was here.

i have been doing really well, until h just left now, and im sad.

im sure i will snap out of it.

no sooner did he leave, maybe 5 minutes later i got a private caller hang up.

i should be happy, psycho ow is totally grasping and feeling threatened.

my son was sad when his daddy left, he really doesnt know what is going on, he also thinks h is home at night when he is sleeping.

so he called h and they made a plan for h to go into son's room tonight and leave him a drink of water. i will make sure i do it for him.

at some point my son will need to be told something, but with us, i hate to say a thing until i absolutely have to.

last year, i had come so close to telling son something and then we decided to work on reconciling.

its just so hard, all around.

but, i must say, i have not texted h is almost 2 weeks, have not questioned anything. it really helps my mood not to do these things. and the longer i go without doing it, the easier it is.