Can it get any worse?

[glamgirl]

Everything will be ok. I know that now. It was a good day yesterday despite this setback. S20 came over to spend time with me and the kids.

He is such an awesome young man. He wrote a song that he sang for me. It was called "let it go". How appropriate. He said mom you just have to let it go. He said mom you did your best and then some. He said you have been so patient and loving, you have nothing to regret.

He also said he was so proud to be my son and that you raised me so well. He said that when he has children he will never ever turn his back on them. He is a wonderful son, more than I could have asked with such an emotional mature mind. He even mentioned many times people say to him you were raised well. That made me so proud. I just did the best with what I had.

All I can do is step back and let h go. He was never mine anyway. He never had the emotional maturity to carry on a m and r the way that I expected.

I was quite suprised though that my h didn't have that maturity. H has great parents that have been together from day one and have raised their children to be good upstanding citizens. All of h's other brothers have turned out well.

I am sure most of the issues that are going on with h are from his childhood. I think he was pressured all of his life to be this great guy that all the family looked up to and respected and he was the one always fixing everyone eles's problems. Well, he snapped and just said enough is enough. I don't want to fix anybody anymore and I don't even want to fix myself. I just want to be whoever and whatever comes my way. Sad, but reality.

This is just another journey along this road of life.