re the anniversary, as we forgive and get more focused on living and enjoying our lives, the passing anniversaries, hurt less and less. "Mourning" what we had is a common way we describe it.
Strongly encourage you to pursue the DivCare. You will learn, get access to helpful resources AND likely find some support from real people you can see an touch (as oppose to us cyber people). It has been 30 months since I started that program and I remember the growth we experienced in that time frame and still stay in touch with the leader from time to time.
Committed2Him- "C2H" All Things (Back from Spain!)...18