"happy to get the email...." really? You were happy to get it? You got sucked right back in and you let it happen. Your h tosses you out and verbally exposes you to horrid behavior on his end...and then snaps his finger and you come running back while saying you'll keep "moving forward..." but the thing is, when your h acts this way, it is so immature, it's in the extreme. It's actually a tad sick, don't you think?
Soooo, that means for you to get ensnarled in his "stuff" again and again...and again...isn't too healthy either, is it? Even for this board, his behavior is ridiculous A/K...and that's saying a lot.
A/K, Since you are not insane and or in some weird narcissistic MLC thing like he is, (and that's giving him the benefit of the doubt) and you do put your kids ahead of yourself and your wellness and life ahead of some all consuming poser career...then you have to be the one to just get out of this craziness. You are banging your head against the wall over and over and it's sooo not working. And it hurts you. Over and over.
You know what you have to do. Even though it's so hard to do, to me there is something harder to do, which is this type of living...I mean the way your life is going now has to be damn hard and I submit, it's a lot harder than moving on will be in the long run. At least try something, anything truly different for a decent length of time and since you have done many things...why not move on? You don't have to shut the door and lock it. But shut it and stop looking back all the time. Ignore your h until if and when he unlocks the door and does some REAL WORK to be your h again.
True, he may not ever do it. And you may wonder if getting half of him is better than getting none....but that's not the full equation. If you have only half of him, frankly, that means some major 'settling for' in your life and you will resent him. AND you will shut down any opportunity of meeting a healthy man with normal expectations so that area of your life will never be fulfilled, and you will NOT move on in all the other ways in life you want to, i.e., Your creative energy will be sucked out by putting up with this "settling"... Sorry A/K...it's just mho.
Food for thought...(Sorry for hijacking Stuck)... j-
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