Sandi, thank you soo much for your response. I receive it!! Yeah, I was a fool. I have been beating myself up over it since I gave her my ring.
I really took my W for granted before she cheated on me. I never pictured her as being a cheater since she was strongly against it and also D. I didn't realize until it was too late that I wasn't paying any attention to my W while I was going to church.
The day my W was hitting on me and cussing me in front of D2, I had to man up and restrain her against the wall. I blocked the hits and eventually stopped her by restraining her. The point is that W got to the level to where she hit me. She not only doesn't respect me but hits her mother like that too. You explained her to the T Sandi. I have grown closer to God since this trial has been going on. I say I was recently truely saved, but I grew up in church too. I was drawn to my W because I saw characteristics that I wanted in a W. I felt like I could trust her and that she really loved me. I got a curve ball right?
Sandi you are completely right...She thinks of me as her father and has rebelled against me. W told me that she always wanted a H that was in love with the lord but doesn't know what she wants now that she has one. W wrote me a letter stating that she fell in love with the old person I was. I wasn't a bad person but was living a sinful life. I used to bring her to the clubs and was very wild. She misses that wild side of me and bad boy image your talking about.
After being hit in the head, I have finally detached. I'm not allowing her to control my life anymore. I hate I allowed her to beat me down like that for so long. Yeah, Dr.Dobson was real in his book. I was doing everything opposite of what he said to do.
Your post blessed me. I will receive that rebuke. : ) Keep writing please.
"Suffering is painful but makes you a stronger person".
