he was back, i think

[mdoodles]

im trying really hard. hard at what exactly, not even sure, but im trying!!!!

its better when i dont speak to him on the days i dont see him, i feel less anxiety and less stressed.

and i think without those tense feelings, i will begin to detach and move forward.

BUT i do talk to him. talking to him makes me wonder - what was he doing before he called, where is he when he calls, what will he do after etc.

i dont ask of course, just wonder.

he says he is coming tomorrow. i said, ok, but again, u need to tell me in advance as i have plans for tomorrow...

i told him (again) that going forward i need to know in advance, so we agreed on set days until he has a job.