Handsome Thanks for the words of encouragement. I haven't heard him talk about it any more, but last time, he plans to move out by July 16th. Sometimes I think space is a good idea right now, but it still seems like a step in the wrong direction.
Next week, he is in Japan on business and I will meet him Seattle for his grandparents 70th wedding anniversary. His whole fam will be there. I hope it goes well. I told him I would be supportive of however he chose to handle any conversations with his family about our situation, if that occurrs. I think everyone except his grandparents know.
This weeknend, there is (another )party over at neighbor Mike's house. Single guy, single friends. I think he will go, but I really don't want to be there when he is gone or gets back, since sitting at home is a drag. So I might pack up the dogs (he would just feed them, throw them in their crates and leave to go to Mikes) and stay either at my sister's or parents. Not sure how I would tell him this or what I would say as to why I would do this, but I really think not being at home and just down the street from Mike's house would mean another sleepless night for me,(esp. considering his behavoir in front of me at earlier parties) and might even make him feel like I am there waiting for him.
I do have DR, and have been reading it...mostly the LRT chapter. I am relatively new to all of this. I think patience is a gift and I hope to become better at that as well as detaching from the expectations of the old R and him, at this point.
I am heading out of the office now to go buy some new golf clubs(irons). I think that might cheer me up a little. We are golfing together on Sunday. I need to find other people to golf with, I think....
Wish me luck this weekend...holiday time,it will be tough for me. marsh
M-45 H-46 no kids, 2 cats, 2 dogs M-19yr bomb-May 9, 2009 H has paperwork, but has not yet filed in C, IC and MC MLC?
