Today is now the 4th day of no contact with W. Yes I have tried to contact her, my calls just go to her voice mail. Left her a message once that if she feels like talking to give me a call back.
Couple of days ago, from upstairs window, I could picture W and S3 playing in backyard and running around swing set, it seemed so real, I almost thought they were there for a minute, it wasn't a memory of the past. This is getting ruff again now, I know what I want in my future, I only wish that I had realized all my faults earlier and had read the books that I have since read. Since I can't change the future, all I can do is pray that it all wasn't a waste and attempt to build a better today and tomorrow.
Looks like my W is going to try and get the divorce over as fast as possible, I'm going to continue to work on me, PMA, GAL, and try harder to detatch. And continue to have a fun with S3 when he is with me. Since one of her complaints last time we spoke is that I don't make more of an effort to see him, I am going to try and get him at least 1 or 2 days during the week for a few hours after work.
Me 35 W 30 S 3 M 7 : T 13 yrs Separated 2/20/09 My Story
