Hi Cat - Hope things are going well for you. You sound like you are such a strong, faithful woman. What an inspiration!:)
MLJ- I did remember you were on vacation. Glad to hear it has been going well! You need that peace and rest from the whole situation.
I have been doing well most of the time. Last night, though, I had a major meltdown. Fortunately, it was not in front of H but after he went to bed. I was upset a bit earlier and walked out of the room he was in and into my bedroom. He actually followed me in to see what was wrong and asked if "things were getting to" me. I am not sure the point of the way it was phrased. He did not ask it in the snide or sarcastic way he did a few weeks ago, actually what I would call kindly, but I am still not sure if he is still looking for chinks in my armor or what. Anyway, to him I just chalked it up to PMS.
Meanwhile, I just was so upset last night being beyond fed up with the selfish behavior. I am upset at his parents for screwing him up so much that he would act like this. I know deep down even during this psycho time he knows he has issues with his childhood but rather than trying to fix anything he seems hell bent on repeating the cycle in his own kids. I am doing my best to protect and negate that but unless he comes out of this with improvement he will have done permanent damage.
HopefullY I was able to get it out of my system last night - haven't cried like that for a long time. Right after Exodus 14:14 came across my path “The LORD will fight for you; you need only to be still.”
Here I felt like I was doing so good at detaching and had a pretty good week . . . wonder why I got slammed out of the blue like that last night?
