GH31 - Dilemma with my pregnant wife

[GH31]

Thanks again Saffie and Phoenixdeux,

I am ashamed of myself for tolerating such deranged behaviour and giving tacit approval by staying around.

During the last 18 months I have thrown my own personal standards aside, mainly through guilt about the hurt I had visited on my wife during our first few years. This coupled with extreme fear and hysteria throughout all of 2008 of being left again. I may have sounded in control on this board and around W but I most certainly wasn't on the inside. For months I would get a panic attack around lunchtime as I was sat at my desk. I was barely able to concentrate and friends told me I was a "shadow of my former self".

Not anymore. I have let go of what I can't control and have found my potency again at work.

Also, my wrongdoings as terrible as they were pail in comparison to the depravity my wife has shown she's capable of. When I first started posting here I genuinely felt that I was getting what I deserved. However, no living human being deserves this.