[Dr LOve]

Hey Everyone...
I am still alive. A little scared though with Michael Jackson (50) and Billy Maze..(50) Passing on..(Me 51)..
I'm Sorry for going dark. I have some reasons that I don't want to say too much here but I was getting carried away with some things to escape reality. Don't worry I have them under control now though.
Well today is the first day of my "Sabbatical" strange but since I have been off I have been up everyday at 5:00 am and then I am off to work on my woodpile by 7:00 am and am there until about 10:00 or 11:00 then come home (IT GETS HOT OUT THERE) then after dinner I usually will go out again until dark.
Have been cleaning out allot of stuff around the house. So I have been busy.
Don't know if any of you have seen the movie "ground hog day"
Where Bill Murphy plays this guy that every morning he wakes up and relives the past day over again. EVERY DAY FEELS LIKE SUNDAY to me. I am still stuck in that frame of mind about think I need to take care of at work "tomorrow" and then realize there are no more tomorrows..(At work).
Not too much has changed in my "marriage" but some strange stuff has happened. The other night our outside cat got into a fight with a baby raccoon. Wife was upset and I had to go out and rescue the cat. It was a baby raccoon and I think the cat was coming out ahead but she was worried so I said put the cat in the garage for the night. Well I cam in a little later and the &%^$% cat was in MY bed. SO I told wife it could sleep there tonight.
Well with all of the excitement we were up late. I still got up in the morning and went do work on my wood business. When I got home wife was awake but she fell asleep shortly after on the couch. I told son who was playing video games that mom was asleep and I was going over MIL house so if Mom wakes up let her know.
Well I was there for a little while and the phone rings. I JOKENLY told MIL that that's wife checking up on me. Well guess what. IT WAS HER. She just asked MIL if I was there and really did not need to talk to me...
WHAT? She wanted to see if I was really there?
Anyway I got my Money from the company.(TAXED 40%)
And the temp around here has been in the 100’s so they were having a sale on above ground pools so I bought one. Wife informed me that it was nice but she probably would not be going swimming.
I asked her why not? She said "because I am FAT. I don't like my body and it’s hard for me to get up that latter."
Ok back tracing a little when I told my "counselor" last year that My wife would not go swimming with our son and I always had to stop what I was doing so he could go swimming.( We don't let him go by himself) because she would say she was "too fat" he told me to tell her that "this is her son too and she needs to get over it. She was NOT to fat to have some guy take naked pictures of her"
Well the weather changed shortly after so I never got the chance
So fast forward to today.. When she said that I told her that the ladder was the ONLY legitimate excuse. She said “they are all legitimate to me"
I really did not want to get into it at that moment.(son was in listening distance) So I told her I don't want to discuss it right now and left to go set up the pool.
A short time later she came outside and said she was going to the store. I asked her what she was going to buy. She said she was going to try to find a "Fat woman" bathing suit. I told her that offends me I would prefer she say "healthy woman’s suit. She told me they call them "Plus size" I told her plus is OK. Plus is good. Its way better that a negative.
So anyway am I getting through to her? I don't know. What I do know is that she has made no attempt to return to our room.
She is helping me out allot with the paper work from being "laid off". She knows what to do since she was laid off three years ago.
Well Independence Day is this Saturday. Our anniversary is the 14th. I think I may push for some conversation on the 4th.
Getting back to me.. I have had the P.D contact me wanting me to go back to dispatching but I don't want to do that. The pay is good better that what I was making but the pressure is just too much. I have an appointment with the admissions at Empire Collage on the 10th to talk about going back to school.
Well I got to go it is getting late.
Will update more soon.
Bye
Doc