i think ill get out of bed now and try to clean up the bedroom for a change..
read the LRT over and over again in DR. trying really hard to do it!!
the only thing i've been able to achieve so far is not contacting him which is huge and terribly hard for me. i really hope something good happens soon..but i know..patience.
Me: 25 years young H: 37 No Kids M: almost 3 years (anniv coming up Sept 25th) Together: 4years Bomb: June 12th, 2009
**LOVE WILL FIND A WAY FOR TWO FOOLS IN THE RAIN**
Beepee, would you want to be married to someone who stayed in bed all day? Or would you rather be married to the person that is up, out and about, and accomplishing something. It's "go time" sweetheart. You won't have any chance at all to be back with your man unless you get going. There is plenty of time for moping around and feeling the pain. Right now, you need to get some things done. Some people found fly lady to be helpful in motivating. All we can do is suggest you do one thing or another, you need to be the one that does it.
Me: 34 H: 39 M: 7 yrs H A 12/05-8/07
If what you say surprises me, I must have been assuming something else was true. - M. Wheatley
ok guys, im listening to your advice and im startin to GAL. although i didnt clean my room, or go to the gym today sadly..i did something that made me feel soo much better!!
one of my goals in the near future is to move out of my parents place because being here is driving me absolutely nuts and this bedroom is filled with memories of my H so i started looking for jobs in the city and just emailed someone about sharing an apartment in September!...hopefully they accept me as their roommate tho..the place is great!! soo beautiful. ive lived there before as a college student and it has everything from concierge services, to a full gym facility, a rooftop outdoor pool, and saunas! so i wont have to pay for a gym membership! yipppeee...and even tho the rent is quite steep, i think i can manage it. theres so much stock left over from my old business that my H and i used to run that i can sell those off gradually and pay for the rent each month. if this works out, i would be really happy. moving to the city will allow me to GAL faster..my friends are there often and they work in the city so we can go out to lunches and dinners often which would really really help me cope through this extremely difficult time im going thru. i realize that i really really need to get going cause if i just dont get up, im going to spiral down PAST rock bottom, which is not good and which is where im at right now.
sooo hoping for this to work out. badly..but i know i need to have patience with this as well! thanks to you guys for all you support again. please dont stop, i still need so much
Me: 25 years young H: 37 No Kids M: almost 3 years (anniv coming up Sept 25th) Together: 4years Bomb: June 12th, 2009
**LOVE WILL FIND A WAY FOR TWO FOOLS IN THE RAIN**
so i cleaned half of my room! wow i didnt think i had that in me at all. but i guess looking up apartments and jobs in the city really helped me look towards a somewhat brighter future with or without my H. feeling a little bit better about myself. Anxious about my C visit tomorrow. will definitely talk to her about DB and DR and see what she thinks. just will be happy to have someone to talk to in person about all of this and how i feel. Havent been able to talk to anyone about how i feel except for on this board. hoping tomorrow will be a productive day. hoping not to cry as much as i did today.
Me: 25 years young H: 37 No Kids M: almost 3 years (anniv coming up Sept 25th) Together: 4years Bomb: June 12th, 2009
**LOVE WILL FIND A WAY FOR TWO FOOLS IN THE RAIN**
Hi, Beepee. I've been reading your thread and I remember those days...I think the first thing you need to do is work on your depression. How long have you been on AD's? I think they take a few weeks to work, but if you've been on them longer than that may need to try something else. It's very weird how the perfect AD for one can do nothing for another, and vice versa. The C helped me a lot. And the people here.
One thing I've learned is when I was depressed in the past I would eat chocolate, wallow in pj's, not see my friends and not do fun stuff or GALing activities. And even to this day when I get depressed, I still start doing that for some reason. I do all the things that are guaranteed to make me even more depressed. But I've learned that for me the best way to get out of it (well yeah the ADs help too), but it's to act as if I'm happy and not depressed. I was depressed earlier this week and I allowed myself one day to do chocolate therapy and wallow in how sad my life is. Then I shower, try to eat healthy, exercise, spend time with friends, and I do volunteer work also, fun GALing stuff. I do that long enough and I feel a little better, then a little better, and I'm back to feeling happy again.
