Good counseling session today for me. Recognized that I've probably fallen into some co-dependencies with my H.
Got a lot done in a couple of hours this afternoon - bought some supplies we need for our place at the lake, got an oil change, gassed up the car, packed, doing some laundry, working on cleaning up the bedroom. Oh yeah - and put a roast on for dinner.
My H got home about 20-25 minutes ago. I was in the office on the computer (right by the front door). Asked me what I was doing home told I had an appt and ran errands. He changed clothes I guess and immediately went downstairs. So that may be the extent of our conversation (besides me going downstairs to tell him when dinner is ready) before my son and I leave tomorrow night.
Who knows??? I have no clue where he's at. At this point it's not consuming me anymore and I think I can finally say I'm back to the strong person I used to be. I have a great network of friends who love and support me. I am certainly blessed!
I'll be checking in next week while we're at the lake. I'm no longer worried about breaking down and calling him. All negative thoughts about what he might be doing while I'm gone are no longer on my mind. He's going to do what he's going to do. I really am just looking forward to the break.
