Ok, don't know if anti DB or not, but I texted H and told him about how scared I am of us getting back together. I put it in context to how he said he was scared to love me after we had a 3 mth break up 13 years ago. Anyway, he called me after to talk about my feelings (to be honest H has been making really good efforts lately). He said he understands and its because of how he handled things poorly. And its all his fault that I feel this way. He promised that he doesn't want to hurt me like that again. And said that if he does hurt me liek that again he would just kill himself. He even said that's why I need to take my time and take it slow. I even started to cry a little when he said that he heard me the other night when I said that I need a man that's going to protect me and he wants to protect me and not to hurt me again. Is this for real, has my H really awoken. I haven't heard him say these things in a long time. He even said that he knows we can get through this.
So I gave him the ok that since he has moved, I'm now willing to go out with him on dates to have some fun like new R. He's been asking for this. So will see. We said we will take it slow. I promised that I will bring new R mentality and just have fun together. He tried to tell me about somethign he took care of with respect to OW today but I told him that I'm new R, and you don't really tell new R about your baggage so handle your business. So we'll see.