Ok having a real tough time today coping with the fact that in one week wife will be moving out of our house to an apartment. I really don't understand how she can go from everything being good 4 months ago to wanting a D and now a trial separation. Can't stop thinking that this separation will only be a way out for her.
She did pay extra on the lease so that it is a 6 month lease instead of a year lease. That is an ok sign I guess. We haven't decided to do anything with the house other than we both will continue to pay the mortgage and I will live there with the dogs.
It just makes no sense to me that someone would not want to go to a counselor or anything that is trying to work on the M. Looking at trial separation statistics shows that about 33% of them working out to better the marraige. Well I am hoping and praying that I will be part of the 33%.
I have told her that I will not be dating anyone while we are separated and she agreed to it and that she hadn't even thought of that. Maybe BS who knows but there is really nothing that I can do about it if she does.
We will be in the same house about another 4 or 5 nights before she moves out. Not much time together though. And being the nice guy that I am I will be helping her move into her place when the time comes. Just the bed and the couches anyhow.
It will be our 6th anniversary 4 days after she leaves. Should be a good one.
Right now I am coming up with all sorts of plans on what we need to do to stay connected and to work on things during the time apart. I haven't told her any of these and probably won't because it really doesn't matter right now and this is on her time line.
She is going to her hometown this weekend to tell her folks that she has got a place and that she is moving out. I had to tell my folks already because my brother is getting married and she was suppose to be in it and won't even talk or look at my family right now.
I am pretty sure that she had it in her mind that no matter what this is what she was going to do and go get a place. In the past month she has been a complete bear to deal with and I did not once lose my temper or anything. She just acts pissed off at all times and tries to completely ignore me. While I just go around and pretend everything is ok and try to make small talk. There are even times where she will come talk to me about something as if nothing was wrong and then ten minuutes later she won't even acknowledge my existence.
Well here's to the next few months of doing whatever I want whenever I want and not having a wife to tell me what to I should be doing.
"Seek first his kingdom and his righteousness, and all these things will be given to you as well" Matthew 6:33
