W texted me at 1:30 am today asking me if i found the remote control to her Tv. lol no reply from me!
this is getting easier now because i know why i'm going dark. i cut off that "itch" i always had to want to be her friend through this and now i realize i was only hurting myself and my chances of reconciliation with her doing so. i don't really feel lost anymore, not anything like i did a few days ago.
but anyways, i'm going out with some friends again to the beach today. i went yesterday with them and had an ok time. there's more of us going today so i'm looking forward to it. also just deposited a fair amount into my checking from a couple stocks i just sold. i can now get some of my own personal finances in order quicker as it was always a long term thing for me when i was with W.
i'm focusing on me 100% right now. i also have a few websites that i run online and need to get back to work on them. i was making a couple hundred a month off of and have completely slacked on updates since this sitch arose. tonite needs to be dedicated to updates and working on the new site i started before W left.
