K4D Rising #2

[K4D]

CG, the past 13 years probably did mean more to him than you know. But he feels like he failed which and doesn't want to again which is why he won't leave OW come hell or high water. He has some issues to work through that will keep him from enjoying his life until he does.

I'm sure he regrets what he did but his pride or fear of failing in his mind is keeping him from trying to reconcile the past. Thats just my guess. Which like you say is a sign he still hasn't grown.

What I can't get past is my W keeps telling me there has been to much irrepairable damage done even if I have turned things around. I can never get past that line.

I don't say anything though. It just seems like such a cop out kind of line. She hasn't tried counseling or anything that could help. Half the time I believe that line is just an excuse so she can be with OM because she knows I have no defense against that line.

I grow so tired of hearing that line when I don't fully believe it because I know there are so many resources available and I have seen others in far worse conditions come back and be strong and work on saving things.

I will probably get blasted for this. But its just a frusturating issue to keep hearing.

W told me earlier on that she probably won't be able to trust another man for a long time, all the while sleeping with OM. I guess that is why sometimes I feel like it is just a cop out or excuse so she can be with who she wants.

Kevin