I dont want him back - not like this. I have grown too much and he has not and he openly admitted that to me y'day. How lazy he was with us, his career and trying to find soloutions.
I am not being mean, just truthful. He is so torn up inside because I wont be his friend or his second choice. I still find it terribly odd he turns to me for big, important life issues and problems and not his GF. But I cant be there for him anymore under these circumstances. Sorry to ramble, I am *so* stressed right now its not even funny. I feel like my chest might explode but I am going to work hard to remain even. And trust me, that is a tall order to fill right now.
Then he tells me that the past 13 yrs meant more to him than I will ever know. Ok. Whatever. I know that sounds mean but I feel kind of mean right now.
