Trying to detach from the madness!

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Thanks Kass...

I barely slept last night. When I did sleep I had a dream that exh was getting married! I was at his wedding with baby and standing at the back watching him. He looked so happy and his family and friends were so supportive. Then after he came and took baby and I saw his wedding ring on.

I am super down. So sad about my daughter. Both her dad and I think she is making a huge mistake, but what can we say? Shes 20. I am hoping she will reconsider in the next few weeks before she is supposed to leave. All she sees now is hearts and flowers. She is throwing her life away.

Selfishly, she is my best friend. She has been the one who has been consistently here and helping me when I needed help with exh. Her and baby are so close and that saddens me as they won't be if she leaves. Again, selfishly the next 6 months are going to be tough with exh and most likely a court battle and I feel so alone without d. I know its not her job to take care of me, but we have become so close. I also know they need to spread thier wings and fly, but I was hoping she would finish school, have her career before she did this.

I feel like I am slowly losing everything important to me.