Just a quick note to say that my H seems to be committed to moving out. He said living with me and the sex, etc., is confsing him.. He also said that others he has talked to (not counselors) have told him that it sounds like 'he should move on'. He is highly in fluenced by what other people tell him, except not me.
I really don't want him to, of course, but I know I need to let him follow this to whatever end it may lead. My family thinks I am nuts for putting up with his behavoir lately (going out 'til all hours and fliritng, with other women..and who knows what when I am not there). I am so exhausted from not sleeping, not eating and not being able to think about ANYTHING except about how this happened - or how our R got to this point - that I am ready to give in. I want to give him his space, but I am not yet ready to give up. However, giving up seems so easy at this point. I think that is where he is at. The easy way out. Still planning a vacation together in August...
He doesn't care that I am trying to change. Is this typical? I feel like this has all happend so quickly, that I still feel like I am spinning from - at leaset what I percieved- as a steady R to one where I am in free fall. I think that is why I still have hope - however small. He plans to move out on July 16th..why a Thursday I have no clue.
I really appreciate reading everyone's posts and I am gleening some insight, but I still feel such sadness and grief that it seems just giving up would be better. I look around the house and see things I will never want or use again, and have begun to 'clean up'.(throw out) Is this normal? I haven't even began to go through pictures..I don't want to. -marsh
M-45 H-46 no kids, 2 cats, 2 dogs M-19yr bomb-May 9, 2009 H has paperwork, but has not yet filed in C, IC and MC MLC?
