I lost another uncle yesterday. He lost a long battle with lung cancer for 3+ yrs. The funeral is Fri. A long time ago he was sexually abusive to most of the nieces in the family. So, there is a lot of emotion involved with the death. For myself, I forgave a long time ago and feel a lot of sadness but no anger. Some of my cousins never came to terms with the sitch, so my thoughts are with them during this tough time as well.
I have to admit I wish my H was here to support me and attend the funeral. The funeral two wks ago wasn't too bad by myself but this one will be harder as I really liked this uncle and was very close with his kids when we grew up. My D16 will go with me so that will help, and my other siblings and their families will be there.
So, it will be okay - I just have a part of me that wishes my H could be there for me too. But he can't, he's still in la-la land. Saw a FB photo on a mutual friend's page with him and my H skiing this week. They must have had to hike quite a ways to find snow as the snow covered peaks are quickly melting with the summer sun.
