2nd-I don't know if you read previous posts but I too, and trusting although I don't think hers was as bad, are on round two and that alone can and does bring resentment. Snodderly posts about that. She has very good information.
When I pray I too pray for strength, patience, insight, understanding, and love. I pray for H to heal. I do pray for the M if that is His will but mostly I just pray for H to heal because if he doesn't I have a pretty good idea where he will end up. Also because I see and hear his pain. Although I do not ever want to go through this again and I do want my marriage, I accept a few things. It is not something I can control although I do have control over me and whether I choose to stand and wait or leave and start over. I accept that he may never heal. But no matter the outcome for us, I pray that he does because I love him and more than I want him, I want him to be healthy and whole. I want him to be who he wants to be and not what he has become through this whole thing.
"Acceptance doesn't mean resignation. It means understanding that something is what it is and there's got to be a way through it."--Michael J. Fox
