I hate my H

[Done in VA]

I do regret having done so much talking...I have to say MC is tricky. I have a great friend who has been such a support for me all along the way. We both discuss what I should & shouldn't say before I go. That is how I had already prepared the answer regarding my changes. I knew MC would ask & I didn't want to talk about them!

It's crazy - I have other people telling me to throw in the towel at this point. If I've made all my changes & he still doesn't feel anything, they think that means he is done & always will be.

I figure if it's taken 6 months to break him of his beliefs that people can't change, it's going to take awhile still to get him "on board" with WANTING to feel anything. Plus I didn't work this hard for this long to give up NOW!

Anyone who tells me that he's done, I say - who cares?! He might be done today, but that doesn't mean he'll be done tomorrow. H & I started dating in Sept 96 & I didn't feel like I loved him until Jan. Even in Dec., I was asking my college roommate when she thought I should break up with him! I didn't care about him in Dec, but wanted to say ILY in Jan. If someone would have said in Dec, do you or will you ever love Mr. HVA - I would have said HECK NO! But w/in that one month, something changed. So why would it be any different now?

I keep thinking if he dropped the bomb in Jan & he's STILL in the house & in the same bed...he can't be done, done. If you get what I'm saying. There must be something in him that doesn't want to or know how to take the next step...so until then time is on MY side!