Controlling your emotions?? Me too. I am with you today...this s**t sucks!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! AK...at the risk of being too forward...maybe we could connect IRL...I think we are close in proximity. It is better to have people IRL sometimes. Let me know your thoughts on this.
too forward? No, not unless you're coming on to me.
let's think about how we could connect.
I'm so pmsing right now so I am just going to do nothing regarding h.
iPod typos sorry.
Ha ha...well I guess this was the wrong term. So sorry, but coming on to you would only complicate my life that much more!!!! Lol!
I don't know...I was just thinking that if we are in the same city, perhaps it might be a good thing to connect when the kids are with the significant other. I know for me this is the hardest. The back and forth...the "daddy's house this...and the daddy's house that". Or "we saw so and so when we were with Daddy"...etc. It is always nice to be busy and have fun and would be at these times! Not to mention being with people who "get it". I guess I could start an IRL support group of my own!!!!! Anyway...updated on your long thread! You are doing well...it is so hard...and I am not trying to hijack...but maybe my recent attitude will rub off...(maybe less intensely though, I am pretty heated right now...)
So, my H is being a jerk...and I am detaching easily for some reason right now. I am so irritated with him actually. The lies and the bullsh*t. It is like stacking up...and I am sick of it. I don't even know where to start sometimes, trying to peel back the layers of WHY this happened and how I can fix it. Screw that. (can you tell I am cynical and angry right now??) I just found out there are more lies...financial stuff. H was NOT a good H for awhile...and while I DO recognize my issues in the R and my part...I will not be treated like this anymore. So this may change (like in an hour!!!) and it may not be a very good DB attitude, but right now I am considering it over....because until H changes the way he treats me...it IS over. Talk about a boundary. I wouldn't think that my kids deserved to be treated this way in a R...and as for making it (the R) work for them...so they aren't hurting, I am doing that being separated...keeping things more than amicable, especially in their presence...and it is hard, but it is the only way them being "resilient" will shine thru. So...IF and WHEN H gets his head out of the sand and realizes that this is all the biggest mistake of his life, I will be in good practice of keeping things pleasant and working on the R in a positive way, and maybe...MAYBE he will be worthy of me again. I mean this.
Anyway...on a tangent, sorry. It is just that there are worse things than a R ending. Being treated like a piece of sh*t. That is worse. And I will be damned if I let my girls see me take it. I will be stronger for them and show them the right things to expect.
H caused this. H gave up. H walked......HIS LOSS, unequivocally.
