YOU are not the one being weak here. It's ok to have the feelings you are having - and completely understandable. Can you have these away from him? Just a place to get your emotions out? You might want to go there and give yourself a set amount of time to get it all out, then make a promise to yourself that you will stop.
Depression, while completely understandable, is something you have to deal with. I'm not talking about true depression. I'm talking about the pain and disappointment you are no doubt going through right now. Pray for peace (I have done that already for you). Reach within yourself for the strength to keep going - it is there.
Get your emoitons out, then get the focus back on YOU - where it belongs and where you have control.
