Newbie - first post and ?s

[Faith2010]

GIMA - thanks for the response. No, I would never do anything stupid. My S is the most important thing in the world to me and I would never do that to him. I'm just so d@mn depressed right now I wish I was dead.

It takes all the strength I have not to ask him right now - Why? Why her? Why are you doing this to us? Why won't you talk to me? Why are you turning to her? How can you hurt me so much and care so little? I so bad want to ask these questions but am keeping myself in check. However, I can't control the tears. They keep coming and coming. I feel I'm being so weak right now with my emotions.