I cannot believe what a total fool I have been. Phoenixdeux & Saffie you are both right. The old GH31 would never have put up with this, W has exacted revenge for the hurt I put her through for years but this is no way to have a marriage - such a marriage cannot exist if one spouse needs to be on the run perpetually in order for the other to chase..
Like I said the only thing keeping me there is this unborn baby. I am emotionally done with her now. I am not making any bids for her attention or affection etc and I am not wishing she was in bed with me. I don't make any attempt to contact her during the day and she doesn't try to contact me. The thought of having sex with her makes me want to throw and the thought of resuming a marriage with her is just unthinkable.
In order to regain my trust and respect the stuff she would have to do is simply too far beyond her. She would never do it. I am reminded of signs I've seen in general stores here in Australia which read "Credit will only be given to persons over eighty years of age when accompanied by both parents".
That's how remote the odds are that my W could ever regain any kind of credibility in my eyes.
Me: 46 W: 46 T: 23 M: 20 DS12 DD11 DS5
W left: 01/28/08 Discovered OM: 02/26/08 W back for 9 days: 04/08 W returned 05/21/08 EA/PA - 01/08-07/09 W's MLC 2008-2014 (realised this much later)