It is so hard. I will agree with that. At least you learned how to react differently this time, I somehow missed that lesson for a while. I am sorry you are here, well I'm sorry we are all here, but it really is a good place to be. The sex issue, well I have struggled with that one. I have done it and been told afterward that we shouldn't have (although I was not the one who started it). Although some will disagree, if you can do it without allowing it to destroy you, then do it. If it is too difficult, then don't. They still want the connection but they don't know why. When they come to you for that, for that instant they have let their guard down, but then they are even more confused and it goes back up. He may not ask again for a while. And you may be ok with it for now but not down the road. That is ok.
I acknowledged our anniversary this year. Nothing big, just a small trinket and a note but I did not expect him to say anything and he didn't. Other than thank you. Which was actually quite fine because I was pretty sure it was going to bring a barrage of insults. But there were no ILY in it, just appreciation and recognition of the day.
Trusting,
I just love that prayer and it comes up for me and my H a lot. Also, remember to ask Him to change you, to show you what you need to do. I think that is the first chapter. I always start with that one. You are still a wife in God's eyes. Thank you for your prayers, yes it was a difficult weekend, but I feel like the weight is finally off of my shoulders. It is almost like one stone at a time was removed and this was the last one. Yes my journey has been long. Sadly it has been long even prior to the MLC monster rearing it's ugly head but there is not one second of it that I would trade. I am grateful, finally grateful, for every single thing that has happened in my life. The good, the bad, the ugly and there has been plenty of all of it. Without it, I would have no relationship with God, of that I am certain. Wow, to see myself write that I am grateful for all of it, no one would believe that came out of my mouth, but it came from my heart to the keyboard. Just amazing. Sorry for the sidetrack.
"Acceptance doesn't mean resignation. It means understanding that something is what it is and there's got to be a way through it."--Michael J. Fox
