mdoodles, you know my sitch too well and I know yours and I can tell you like kat said, it takes time and we all progress at our own pace. But strange enough you get there. I know my sitch is unresolved and I'm thinking that this whole db or none-db thing is probably a process rather than an achievement. Meaning is not that we are reaching to get something but that its always work n progress. With time you will get there. Really try to occupy yourself and you will get there quicker. Work on developing what you want your life to be life no matter who is a part of it. That's whtI'm trying.