Hmmmm, I've asked myself the same thing and the truth of the matter is not a whole lot. My friends can't stand him, my kids think he emotionally abuses me, he calls me names (not bad names things like user, golddigger-he even told me that I was abusing him. He is brutal when it comes to my roommate, calls her all kinds of names. He even suggests that she and I are having a thing going. This girl has been a friend of mine for over 30 years. Isn't that a little wierd? I feel like I'm back on a roller coaster, last week, he wanted to marry me, this week, he's stressed and wants to be left alone. I live in a state of confusion.
I knew I would get a message from you Oldtimer. You actually motivate me. I talked to me XF at lunch today and he pretty much told me to do what's best for me and you know what, I need to do just that. I need my own place, my own things. I really think I need some comfortable things around me. I feel like such a misfit. Do you know that I don't even have a mailing address right now? Isn't that ridiculeous? I've never been so misplaced in my entire life and I need to make this right. I know I need to do all this so why the hell can't I? What am I hanging on to? You know I called my former C, but my XF got so angry and told me he wasn't a real C and was nothing more than a cheerleader and he didn't want any part of it. I can't do anything right in his eyes. Why does he keep me hanging around? I have some idea why I hang around, but why does he stay in it?
