I had written quite the flowing missive about the note. Waited. Looked at it. Tried to figure if I was doing too much of a Pollyanna spin. Then deleted it all and left hugs.
What do I think? Well.. first of all, sometimes I'm afraid I'm a cranky ole angry woman rattling off the same doom and gloom, twirling 2x4's where ever I go. That's on my bad days and I try to stay away from the boards.
It reminds me of a 'note' I recently received from a younger Brazilian man who was putting down additional wood flooring in my bedroom. I'm pretty sociable so I'm laughing and talking.. being friendly but not flirting. At one point he said I should go out, date.. "oh no no.. not me!" was my eeking reply. "Why.. you are so young and beautiful!" Huh? And just how old do you think I am? With those Latin eyes he perused me and pondered before making a judgment, "42"... I was stupefied.. since I'm just over a decade older. I enjoyed the compliment and let it go at that.
When his work was done, I stayed out of my room for a day or so to avoid the fumes. When I did go back in on the drop cloth over the sink was a note.. "I Love You".
What the...? It rattled me.. but at the same time was a little creepy. I figured maybe an "I love you" meant "you're a great person" since English is his second language (learned by ear). I kept the note around for a day or so, face down and eventually threw it away.
Your note, my note... just words on a piece of paper. Words that were left for you/me to find and decipher... then deal with the emotions.. the 'ball in my court'.
So.. though it has pretty words that may express hope or blame.. it's a piece of paper. I tossed mine not wanting to walk in that minefield.
She wrote it to feel better about herself. The fact she expressed something may indicate a teenie tiny seed is starting to take root. This is her chimichanga. The FYI email about Retrouvaille.. was your wife endorsing it? This is her learning to walk.. because you're not rescuing.
Let her come to you, take the initiative. She knows where to find you.
Tell me when to make a banner that says, "I'm going to Retrouvaille!"
