he was back, i think

[mdoodles]

spoke to my therapist, she is totally on my case. i told her its not that i cant let go, just dont want to.

the things that i need to do to fully let go and begin that process for real, im not ready to do because i dont want to.

i am hoping my baby steps will lead me to total detachment.

i cant make myself feel a certain way so fast, even though she said it may feel unnatural.

just not there yet.

im glad i said no to him yesterday, maybe that will give me strength...