Amazingly..it has been a quiet week. Again, STBXW seems happy...chipper...and sometimes I feel stuck...not in the 'whoa is me' or the 'I want my wife/life back'...but the I wish I could just extricate myself more quickly from this quagmire.

Even registering my D6 for fall soccer...a standard thing for her..same camp...nothing new...becomes a 'how dare you register her without talking to me' etc. This, even after telling her to discuss a musical instrument with S8 and also asking she discuss with S8 what he wants to play sportswise in the fall since he was up in the air about it. I can't win even when I try, still, to coparent.

D6 is coming around. I went into her room early this am before leaving for work to give her a kiss goodbye. She threw her arms around me, told me she loves me and she 'isn't letting go.' I love her so much.

So, in 2 weeks a hearing....next month another court date. This drags on...and on...and on.....

The system is totally broken here in the State of NY. Totally. Never in a million years did I think that my sitch would be up there for one of the worst. It's torture but I am trying to make the best of things.

Although I would love to meet another woman and share intimacy again....I continue focused on my children.

Thanks for all your support.

FIB

Me 55; XW 47; 2 kids (S13, D11)
Bomb 05/19/06 Original thread http://tinyurl.com/yg2ou2t
Last anniversary 04/25/10, Divorced 5/12/10
Status: Loving father of 2 beautiful children;