Haven't read your entire thread, but it sounds like you are having trouble picking yourself up. I have a certain time of the day that my emotions tend to drop off - mine seems to be around 3:00 pm. No idea why. Just know it does.
I completely understand how you feel. BUT, this is one of those times where you just have to dig down, find the inner strength we both know you have, and pull yourself up. DR talks about "acting as if" you will be fine, even if you do not feel that way initially. Sort of a "fake it til you make it" thing.
GAL'ing is absolutely critical. Go for a run, walk, hike, just get out of the house and do something, anything. Think of something you have always wanted to do...and go do it. Yes, it will be hard at first. But the good news is it gets easier.
Hang in there. You can always come to these boards for support - we all do. And, you CAN do this.
