she doesn't see you as a slouch for not speeding up the divorce process and even if she did, that's her opinion.
You are way too approval seeking.
This is the attitude you have to adopt because it seems to me, she is used to having her way with you, you sound like the doormat type of guy, she barks an order and you do it, she treats you poorly, she speaks to you poorly, she is probably verbally abusive, she is commanding/demanding, she looks at you with blank expression on her face or an angry one usually, she is never happy at least not around you.
You have to stop caring what she wants. Caring about what she wants all the time and never caring about what you want is what killed the attraction in this relationship, you became very boring to her, conquered, no challenge, too easy, she gets everything she wants out of you usually and after a while that got boring.
Am I close in my description? If not please please say so.
