been keeping really busy, which truly is a good thing for the mind.
went to the beach yesterday, when i got home, h was already in the house.
he was all over me yesterday, sitting wherever i was, including on our bed, watching tv with me.
i cant figure him out, i guess im not supposed to.
i saw his reflection in the tv screen, he was not watching tv, rather looking at me, looking at me laying on the bed next to him.
i know what i was wearing was driving him wild, which of course is always a boost in confidence...
he took son out for a little and called to ask if what son wanted to bring in for dinner was ok with me( as if he ever called questioning the food? lol)...
came back home and came upstairs to sit with me in our room..
he finally gave in to his temptation, i didnt turn him away.
not sure if that is good or not...
i kept up my confidence when he left, i did not ask him to stay, did not text or call him.
im doing the best i can, trying to pack, find where to move and even a part time job.
but im not letting go of him, i dont want to. not yet.
who knows what will happen. clearly he is still confused, who knows if he will ever leave the confused state.
me: 31 H:29 Son:5 m:8 years in november t:10 years first bomb: 10/06 moved home: 3/08 out again 5/08 ow bomb: 4/08, since summer 06 d filed:6/08, on hold 6/08 moved home:3/09 out again 5/09
