I had to pick up some medicine for the dog today and took it to xbf's house. As it worked out, we had a really good conversation. It was one I have been waiting for. He told me he is confused and I agreed and said it was ok. He doesn't want to be confused. He was once more very complimentary to me, my outfit, my personality. Eventually we got in to a conversation and to make a long story short, I asked him if he was in love and he said he doesn't know what it is. I said it was ok to tell me, since we're friends and that I hoped he knows what love is or the time we spent together I had failed him. He said no, he knew love. He said that the OW has some good qualities but not the same as mine. He misses me. He's unsure of what I think. So I was very blunt. I may have broken every record in the book, but I spoke the truth. I said that until this point in my life, he has been the love of my life and that he made me very happy in the time we shared. I needed him to know that. He said he felt that everything was timing. He wanted to marry me and I had never committed that so he felt it was a lost cause. As I began to move to that, he began to give up. We talked a good hour, which was HUGE! I don't know what will happen next but at least we had some true communication. He will need to think through his confusion. I feel that if he can think it through and we have a chance back, we could have one heckuva great love story. Wouldn't that be worth it.
