Journalling..... I can't believe it, but I did not have time to think about H today! I got home at 8pm, showered, and am so exhausted, I could just fall asleep, but am going to wait an hour or so at least. I have to get up at 6am tomorrow morning. I can see how this is going to be very helpful. But, on the other hand, I will say that I really wanted him to be home when I opened the door! SIGH! One step forward...another back...HA!
Anyways, too tried to even think right now. I can't wait til January, so I have about 6 months of work under my belt and I can stop feeling so much anxiety and just uncertainty.
I have no thoughts even about my M. Is this how he is feeling? I feel like I just can't even go there.......not that I want to dissolve the M, but that I don't want have energy for it tonight. I feel some weird sense of empathy for H.....NOT excusing him, but just....a different sense of understanding.
