Who knows at this point. H came home and immediately went downstairs. I tried to help our son with his new laptop and had to go downstairs to ask my H if he could come up and try to help. It'll probably have to wait until our older son gets home from work in a couple of hours - he's the one with the computer skills.
I'm just tired and angry with the whole situation. Waiting for the other shoe to drop later tonight - if he decides to talk about it. I think he's going to be surprised at my reaction. I'm just not going to take it anymore - I'm tired of hearing it's all my fault he tried and wouldn't respond, my shutting down was just an excuse, he can't just turn off his emotions like I do (no I don't but I've learned I can choose how I respond to them whether than wallow in them and feel sorry for myself).
I've taken responsibility for my part, apologized, and I making positive changes in my life. If he chooses not to be with me so be it but I'm not going back to where I came from and I'm not letting him beat me down anymore. I won't make it easier by filing for him if he says he wants to divorce - he'll have to take responsibility for once in his life and follow through.
Wouldn't you love to be a fly on the wall when he talks to her about our conversation today?
