What to do when Husband's Gone & Makes No Contact?

[beepee]

i know what all of you are saying, i really do
but i just dont know how to force myself to get out and get a life.

ive lost so much of myself and ive lost all hope and i cant stop crying. this pain is just tooooo much to handle. the constant heartache, the constant feeling of emptiness, the constant anxiety, i am so paralyzed. im sooo completely paralyzed.
i was ok this morning..i had hope, i had faith, i was beginning to think about how i wanted my life to be..but after receiving this email, all the pain just rushed back and the feelings just get worse and worse and worse. im trying to read or watch tv or something but my mind cant focus on anything at all..nothing but him and what hes said. im trying so hard but i dont know how much more pain i can take.