I'm pretty sure all hope is gone. I called our friend the one who he spent 31 hrs on the phone with. To check in with her because it had been about a week and half since we talked and I wanted to show her that I cared about her and to see if she'd give me any insight into my H since he'd helped her with her husband.
Bottom line she's still really angry at me feels like I overlooked poor behavior from another friend of ours and wasn't that good of a friend to her.
She basically told me that she thinks my situation is the same as hers that my H just does not want to try and work things out. She was very angry. She wanted to know if I'd cleared her name basically - that I told anyone I talked to about her that their phone calls were innocent.
She did say my H called her today and she wasn't going to answer but she heard him say to pick up because he'd told me I wasn't going to tell him who can talk to anymore. (that was part of our Sunday night conversation awhile a week ago)
I called my H today in the interest of full disclosure and told him that I'd called her. So basically I think it's over. I really don't see any hope at this point. Guess the comments this weekend about me traveling, him taking the boys on a trip while I visit my brother, and he doesn't see what it matters if I travel were big hints.
It's our son's birthday tonight so I'm going to try and make it a good one for his sake. We'll see what my H has to say later this evening.
I think I'm going to throw up. Thank God I called his Aunt today (she's a nurse - her husband is our GP) and asked for anxiety medicine. I'll pick that up before I get home.
I feel like I've just been run over by a tank truck!
