The waiting is the hardest part. I'm in a similar boat. I heard from my W about a month ago. She stopped by to drop something by the house ... took her about 2 minutes and she was gone. It's the only time I've heard from her in the last two months. No emails. No texts. No ... nothing. I feel for you. I really do. I have the same fear, namely that my W may never contact me again.
Trying to figure out what they're thinking is going to make it worse FOR YOU. Honestly, you have no idea what is going on in their heads. My guess is that they don't either ... but that is only a guess.
The bottom line is that you can't control anything regarding what they do or don't do. The frustrating part is not that you necessarily want to control his behavior, but you've come to expect certain behavior from him ... contact is one of those things that you expect.
I've been trying to figure out the whole GAL thing too. Like you I work like a crazy person, but have been trying to do stuff just for me no matter how seemingly small. Sometimes it is just doing things I know are good for me, even if I'm not feeling it. Start small.
