Be confident that in the end of this - and even as you work through it - you will find that self-aware person. She will be looking at you from the mirror - welcoming you back.
I've quoted this poem here before...and I think it's so appropriate that I'll post it once more.
It's by Derek Walcott.
............................. Love After Love
The time will come when, with elation you will greet yourself arriving at your own door, in your own mirror and each will smile at the other's welcome,
and say, sit here. Eat. You will love again the stranger who was your self. Give wine. Give bread. Give back your heart to itself, to the stranger who has loved you
all your life, whom you ignored for another, who knows you by heart. Take down the love letters from the bookshelf,
the photographs, the desperate notes, peel your own image from the mirror. Sit. Feast on your life.
