It has also been an on-going, two-day exercise in - and gauge of my detaching.
"Oh, boy, that was great! Response! Emotion! Progress!"
"You said what you wanted to say. You know that she responded - and how she responded - Saturday morning and Saturday afternoon. That's all. It indicates nothing. It just is."
Gardener talks to Gardener. A lot.
An M/R book w and I read once had a gem, a nugget, I always remember: "If you can't video/record it, you can't comment on it, it's just projecting/mind-reading, judgement." (paraphrase).
Gardener
"My soul, be satisfied with flowers, With fruit, with weeds even; but gather them In the one garden you may call your own." Cyrano deBergerac