Hi Pam, thanks for dropping by.

As you can see I don't get to be here much. We had our internet access cut off over the weekend so that didn't help.

I am picking up a vibe on the BB at the moment which is chiming in with my own mood. At least I'm not the only one going through a yucky patch. H is being nice as pie at the moment coming out with plenty of ILYs and other pleasant comments. Trouble is I don't feel like saying it back. I'm not really sure what is going on with me at the moment but I feel like I am just going through the motions not engaged here. Feel like I could end up being WAW. Like I've thrown my life away on him and he is just a waste of space. Not sure where all this negativity is coming from Just don't feel right in this R and don't feel like it will ever be right.

Maybe too much focus on R and DBing for me and maybe I should shift that elsewhere, get going with other stuff so I am not constantly niggling away at the problem of R and just get on with other things in life.

Fran

if we can be sufficient to ourselves, we need fear no entangling webs
Erica Jong