oh hon... you still think you are at fault regardless anything he does to you.
You love him... so what?! I loved x too, but when I found out he was still seeing/talking to ow despite all our counseling/my efforts to be superW I drew the line. It killed me to tell him to go, but I was dying living with him, having him disrespect me, knowing he disregarded my feelings and basically treating me like scum as he kept lying and hiding stuff from me. I loved him and he is the father of my kids, but there is a time when enough is enough... The fact that you love him doesn't mean you'll take anything from him.
Again, you are just like x, too hurt and blind "in love" to remove yourself from a bad person, from a toxic situation. RUN RUN RUN. you have no kids with him, no years of history, nothing to tie you down, if I could I'd move to Calcutta so I could never hear from x but I can't, I have to deal with him *all* the time.
You have the luxury of starting over again. MOVE MOVE MOVE, for crying out loud, make a wonderful life away from him, he is only a man, you dont' have to give him so much power over you!!! do you have family or a friend on another state where you can go? you need to leave and never look back.
Is this what's love supposed to be? all this suffering?
Be not afraid...I will repay you for the years the locusts have eaten Joel2
30something 2kids survivor of S, MLC, A, D I have peace in my heart, at last.
